So I've decided to start this cause I've just finished university and I'm feeling absolutely and completely at sea. I'm excited but more petrified about the rest of my life and I feel like I need some sort of record of thoughts, feelings, what I've been doing, to try organise my life a bit. Turk trying to organise her life. Hilarious, I know.
Since finishing university and having handed in all my essays I've kinda been running on adrenalin, not fully accepting the fact that I may have to grow up some time soon. As a result, tonight a kind of exhaustian / reality check hit me. Wasn't nice, but I knew I needed to get out of my house in Belfast - I've never missed my wee Mini so much. I just wanted to drive off and see where I ended up. Clear my head, get back to nature, re-energised, all that stuff. My friend Pete saved my life and drove me away from the madness. Don't get me wrong, I love Belfast, I love my life there. But sometimes you just need to get away. We went to Oxford island and walked in the rain; just what I needed. So refreshing to get out, away from being surrounded by man-made things, which at the minute only seem to oppress me, in a sense... or pressure me. I think. I'm finding it hard to express myself, probably not helped by the fact I'm incredibly tired. I need life to stop for a while. Just to let me breathe, rest and chill. For a minute. Then I'll be ready to get on with the rest of my life.
Tomorrow, I'm going to drive. I'm going to read, I'm going to write, I'm going to draw. I'm going to admire God's creation and let the love that pours out of it refresh me. Even writing about it makes me happy! :)
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